Eventually one of us has to break it out: it's not easy to maintain this. I began to feel the urge to have someone nearer to me. Not that I have seen an option, might be potential-in myself though. I know that we didnt talk about this, much less plan this. But I would have to acknowledge this existence, tell myself that this is happening, and thus is not quite right.
How sane can it be when out of the blue you began to see the usual boy-friends as date-able and potentially lead to romance?
or
How sane can that sound when every touch made tingles your fantasy and excitements?
I might have to isolate myself before I began to get worse than this.
But then again, are there incentive?
I dont know what I want / where Iam going.
One thing for sure, I know that ours is not developing. Maybe we are just too scarred slamming the truth to one another that it no longer seen as feasible?
That might what Im thinking. What is yours?
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Sexy
I have gotta agree that Bill Compton, on and off camera, is a good balance of wit, good humour, good virtue and manner.
I sincerely yearn that it would all be mine in one package too. Badly, more than ever. Whoever goddess of love, hear me and grant me one wonderful being. I will then take care of your entrusted being, wholeheartedly.
I sincerely yearn that it would all be mine in one package too. Badly, more than ever. Whoever goddess of love, hear me and grant me one wonderful being. I will then take care of your entrusted being, wholeheartedly.
Friday, October 16, 2009
sick wisdom
It somehow reveals who are my real friends and those who truly care for me and who are not. I hope, I have shown to people about keeping friendship,if not, I will try harder to show them and proving to myself what it takes to keep one. Like John C Maxwell said, "invest, on every day in your life, time to nurture a real friendship".
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Long Before
It took me long before I realized that those people around me may not be there when Im there. Exclusion, everywhere it exists. With no exception is mine. I guess everyone needs time for oneself. But would you still call them friends when they are just with themselves? Started with four, down to three, and now duo. Where am I?
Maybe, I regarded you too high
Maybe, Im losing my survival sense
Maybe, Im lonely
Maybe, Im arrogant
Maybe, I dont know what it takes to keep a friendship
or Maybe, you dont know what it takes to keep one?
A Donna has gotta move on. Find a new spring, for the other one been shared by 2.You can find many more who gonna embrace your care.
Saturation doesn't lead to desperation-is what I embraced.
Hello Demotion, Goodbye Bogus! Carefree is stepping up :)
Survive,Succeed <3
Maybe, I regarded you too high
Maybe, Im losing my survival sense
Maybe, Im lonely
Maybe, Im arrogant
Maybe, I dont know what it takes to keep a friendship
or Maybe, you dont know what it takes to keep one?
A Donna has gotta move on. Find a new spring, for the other one been shared by 2.You can find many more who gonna embrace your care.
Saturation doesn't lead to desperation-is what I embraced.
Hello Demotion, Goodbye Bogus! Carefree is stepping up :)
Survive,Succeed <3
Friday, September 18, 2009
me. ME?
Today I know for sure, the word resistance has a very powerful meaning (or at least to me-and my lazy body). I woke up at 9.45 ish, and as usual, dragged myself outta bed at least 30 minutes later, and straight to LAPTOP. Geez! Maybe if someone were to Suoer-glued me (literally) to my laptop, our moment of seperable will no longer limited to bathroom-affairs. And back to my lazy day, I ate the remaining of my 5 hours labour (Oxtail Soup) and lazed on sofa, savouring on my daily over-dose dope of His writing. Still, entertained on day two. You got me hooked, dude.
Anyways, due to my being procrastinator, I have been extremely unproductive and yielding mountainous work to do, that I could have done many ages ago. Now it all sums up, with my worries over university transfers, subject combination, my parents coming here, also my Canadian visa problem (saving for the next paragraph!). See how much it all accumulates in my head? Geez, I didnt know that I could be this unefficient when it comes to holiday period. Where did I spent those 4 weeks on? Where was the motivation I set aside to study TOEFL despite being on holiday? tell me WHEREEEEEE~
The funny thing is that, Im sure to hell, not to mistook my personality as any kind other than someone, who measures how good her day was by recounting how productive she is, or how much she has crossed off from her to-do list. But what's with the moral deterioration?
A quiet voice inside my heart, that took me long time to admit, seems to tell me that I no longer cares about myself, my future, the people surround me with their expectations, as much as I used to. What has gotten into me? Im having too much fun, and swerved a LOT more than what I could anticipate myself. Now I have trully understood what my boyfriend has been saying "jangan cakap abes", which in English translation could probably mean "dont be too sure/confident". Since I didnt forsee nor I admit to myself that Im digressing, I began the process of self-denial: Iam still having full control of myself, and leading myself to where I ought to be (notice that I used OUGHT instead of GOTTA), darn proud, I might say. I kept not listening whats inside my heart was telling me about. Now I know that self-dialogue, though it sounds monologue, could have said a lot about things that you dont bother to take a second look at, nor spend more than 1 minute digging on it.
I somewhat feel more human-ly this holiday. I know that I possessed some characteristics that defines human, like: lazyness, digression, mood-swing,lost,and apparently, ego. One thing that I'd never realize I have it, up till my relationship got me discover them. Thank you Baby, you regain me back my sense of humanity, or more like, makes me feel like complete human. Now I know that Im as humane as anyone else there is in the world, meaning that any unfortunate events in the form of mental disorders/whatevs, I could be having those too. Now, the stake is,I know where the problems are, and what gonna differentiate me and them: knowing that im diverting and handling it fast/ being ignorant and going downhill with it.
Not too bad huh, for a holiday. This experience SHOULD be enriching, and not a PASSER-BY.
Not Quitting,
Arella.
Anyways, due to my being procrastinator, I have been extremely unproductive and yielding mountainous work to do, that I could have done many ages ago. Now it all sums up, with my worries over university transfers, subject combination, my parents coming here, also my Canadian visa problem (saving for the next paragraph!). See how much it all accumulates in my head? Geez, I didnt know that I could be this unefficient when it comes to holiday period. Where did I spent those 4 weeks on? Where was the motivation I set aside to study TOEFL despite being on holiday? tell me WHEREEEEEE~
The funny thing is that, Im sure to hell, not to mistook my personality as any kind other than someone, who measures how good her day was by recounting how productive she is, or how much she has crossed off from her to-do list. But what's with the moral deterioration?
A quiet voice inside my heart, that took me long time to admit, seems to tell me that I no longer cares about myself, my future, the people surround me with their expectations, as much as I used to. What has gotten into me? Im having too much fun, and swerved a LOT more than what I could anticipate myself. Now I have trully understood what my boyfriend has been saying "jangan cakap abes", which in English translation could probably mean "dont be too sure/confident". Since I didnt forsee nor I admit to myself that Im digressing, I began the process of self-denial: Iam still having full control of myself, and leading myself to where I ought to be (notice that I used OUGHT instead of GOTTA), darn proud, I might say. I kept not listening whats inside my heart was telling me about. Now I know that self-dialogue, though it sounds monologue, could have said a lot about things that you dont bother to take a second look at, nor spend more than 1 minute digging on it.
I somewhat feel more human-ly this holiday. I know that I possessed some characteristics that defines human, like: lazyness, digression, mood-swing,lost,and apparently, ego. One thing that I'd never realize I have it, up till my relationship got me discover them. Thank you Baby, you regain me back my sense of humanity, or more like, makes me feel like complete human. Now I know that Im as humane as anyone else there is in the world, meaning that any unfortunate events in the form of mental disorders/whatevs, I could be having those too. Now, the stake is,I know where the problems are, and what gonna differentiate me and them: knowing that im diverting and handling it fast/ being ignorant and going downhill with it.
Not too bad huh, for a holiday. This experience SHOULD be enriching, and not a PASSER-BY.
Not Quitting,
Arella.
Thursday, September 17, 2009
(not) Shopping Spree
Today i was kind of lazy (which I always have been in the past weeks), but unlike any other days, the resistance of moving my body today was kinda bad. I was super-glued to my lappie today, there goes my breeding addiction to Twitter! Me and Alina were talking about it on Tuesday, how she was following many actress and celebrities whom she likes and the current happenings in Twitter world; Kanye West openly saying he'd rather Beyonce won the award than Taylor Swift :s And without realizing, i began my hunt to know people's updates in Twitter. Today i was "stalking" my junior high school peeps. Break up somehow dominates the Tweets (or my eyes were being selective?), sorry dear strangers! Im over the moon with my love-life right now ( i know some of you might wanna throw your shoes at me, which by the way, are NOT permissable). HAHA.
My but began to feel to hot and stuffy from sitting on the couch for over 3 hours (Raditya Dika, you are utterly responsible on this. By the way, read him here.
He is the type of Indonesian guy I will probably want to marry. Well, that is IF I can found any other Indonesian guys who have wits in their mind. Honestly, I thought his mind is what I can call "fresh" without any difficulty in comparing him, versus the fruits at QFC. Totally funny, matter of fact, and entertaining. I was somewhat hooked by his writing style and was simply amazed in his ability to weave words into something that are so pleasant to read. His well-versed facts was somewhat dashing off my hopes of finding any guys from the Motherland who possess the same trait of being well-read. Geez, you fascinate me.
And to somewhat ligtened up my assumption of being lazyass, I tried to tell my limbs to move and bring me out. Mr Driver brought me to Nortgate Mall. Tak salah lagi karena ingin membeli sesuatu kebutuhan yang mengingat demandnya, menjadikan harganya tidak sepatutnya MAHAL. I spent 103.00 on 4 Bras today. Nope it's not something fancy from Victoria Secret, nor it sexy as hell like how you think of Lingerie is. They are just the simple ones. I know it's kinda taboo thing to talk on blog over m y experience buying them in US, but, you (esp GUYS) gotta know. I spent long time walkng over the section, finding those without paddings just to get disappointed that 90% of those that sold there were WITH padding. It might give you the clarification on why american girls are seemingly have fulling tits as compared to Asians. Those bras sold in Singapore has about less than 5% of padding over all bra population lol.
Here is all. GOod night~
My but began to feel to hot and stuffy from sitting on the couch for over 3 hours (Raditya Dika, you are utterly responsible on this. By the way, read him here.
He is the type of Indonesian guy I will probably want to marry. Well, that is IF I can found any other Indonesian guys who have wits in their mind. Honestly, I thought his mind is what I can call "fresh" without any difficulty in comparing him, versus the fruits at QFC. Totally funny, matter of fact, and entertaining. I was somewhat hooked by his writing style and was simply amazed in his ability to weave words into something that are so pleasant to read. His well-versed facts was somewhat dashing off my hopes of finding any guys from the Motherland who possess the same trait of being well-read. Geez, you fascinate me.
And to somewhat ligtened up my assumption of being lazyass, I tried to tell my limbs to move and bring me out. Mr Driver brought me to Nortgate Mall. Tak salah lagi karena ingin membeli sesuatu kebutuhan yang mengingat demandnya, menjadikan harganya tidak sepatutnya MAHAL. I spent 103.00 on 4 Bras today. Nope it's not something fancy from Victoria Secret, nor it sexy as hell like how you think of Lingerie is. They are just the simple ones. I know it's kinda taboo thing to talk on blog over m y experience buying them in US, but, you (esp GUYS) gotta know. I spent long time walkng over the section, finding those without paddings just to get disappointed that 90% of those that sold there were WITH padding. It might give you the clarification on why american girls are seemingly have fulling tits as compared to Asians. Those bras sold in Singapore has about less than 5% of padding over all bra population lol.
Here is all. GOod night~
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
emosi ilusi
Maybe the most horrible feeling i have ever felt is the feeling of being wasted. Like when you tried to pick up someone's coin on the floor, already squatting, but someone else has got it all picked up, or when you have brought umbrella (which you normally dont), and it was darn sunny the whole day.
Maybe my examples are more like digression than elaboration, but anyways, im trying to emphasize that it feels so bad when you have channeled my willingness and intention, to get us back on track through my favorite route, but you chose to have a shortcut and shortened the beauty of making up. The same with "I tried hard to get the vibe and chemistry works better, but you were not responsive" in humane works. Many moments passed when I thought "I cant possibly be missing the beauty of many dancing-away moments, or the light weaving-romance moments together with you". But yeah apparently I just did. Not blaming you though. Just that reality strikes hard, maybe my importance is not as absolute as it once was. And Im in the position whereby I have the whole day in the world to start noticing, feeling, apprehending the situation. GAH!
Conscience told me to be a lil more patient, and lenient, but what is a girl with no ego? I used to think that ego actually gives direction, but now i feel its kinda the digressing power; I concentrate more on satisfying my ego rather than getting to where we should be in the stage of relationship that we share. I ended up being demanding, with no apparent reason, as to make things better, or just to let my stuffy chest out. I feel so naggy these days, though i have ground proof for those, like how my importance has slid off. Maybe you are acting humane to avoid the constant discomforts. But still, I hope you get it, one day.
Theres still much love for you and I to share.
Maybe my examples are more like digression than elaboration, but anyways, im trying to emphasize that it feels so bad when you have channeled my willingness and intention, to get us back on track through my favorite route, but you chose to have a shortcut and shortened the beauty of making up. The same with "I tried hard to get the vibe and chemistry works better, but you were not responsive" in humane works. Many moments passed when I thought "I cant possibly be missing the beauty of many dancing-away moments, or the light weaving-romance moments together with you". But yeah apparently I just did. Not blaming you though. Just that reality strikes hard, maybe my importance is not as absolute as it once was. And Im in the position whereby I have the whole day in the world to start noticing, feeling, apprehending the situation. GAH!
Conscience told me to be a lil more patient, and lenient, but what is a girl with no ego? I used to think that ego actually gives direction, but now i feel its kinda the digressing power; I concentrate more on satisfying my ego rather than getting to where we should be in the stage of relationship that we share. I ended up being demanding, with no apparent reason, as to make things better, or just to let my stuffy chest out. I feel so naggy these days, though i have ground proof for those, like how my importance has slid off. Maybe you are acting humane to avoid the constant discomforts. But still, I hope you get it, one day.
Theres still much love for you and I to share.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
SIAL!
Jarang2 gw bisa menemukan occasion yang baik untuk ngomong 1 kata ini. Tapi hari ini, tanpa dicari, seluruh biluh sel2 di badan gw seolah2 berteriak "SIAL!" bareng2. Agak terdengar kacau dan ngawur,tapi betul2 in context hari ini.
Untuk memulai suatu hari yang baru, pertama, toilet bowl gw langsung berontak. Whenever i tried to flush, the water didnt go away (implying that the waste doesnt go away too. Read as GROSS!). So thw water runs high in the bowl. And i was stupidly flushed for the second time, only to realize that was the dumbest decision i'd ever made in life: the water leaked OUT from the bowl.
The second misfortune was mercilessly testing my patience. My internet connection was off for a few moments, got me called the COMCAST operator. That is one thing I'd hate the most among the many uses of phone: calling operator, and be given many choices before getting talked to the person i supposed to talk to. I especially hate IKEA's hotline. It gave me so many choice of numbers to press, depending on what I was complaining about, until the point where I'd fforgotten what was my initial intention to call and which number to select -__-
Third and the most annoying thing to be had was when I went to Bestbuy to buy my long-dreamt camera, the color that I happened to like was SOLD OUT. Maybe, with this degree of misfortune, i can now say FML.
Anyways, just to share with you, I want to buy
But i want it in silver color, which apparently spare no chemistry for me :[ but anyways, isn't look kinda cool in this color? *self-doctrinising myself into thinking it's okay to buy this color* AHAH.
So, the big plan for tomorrow is to first, get my camera at 10am, and wait for the dear plumber to fix my toilet bowl :D and after that, me and Alina are going to downtown, mayeb with Toshiki and Gavin too. WOot!
I have nothing much to say, just too excited to get a hold of my new camera lols.
This song never fails to send an urge to be closer to The Creator,for meAve Maria
Untuk memulai suatu hari yang baru, pertama, toilet bowl gw langsung berontak. Whenever i tried to flush, the water didnt go away (implying that the waste doesnt go away too. Read as GROSS!). So thw water runs high in the bowl. And i was stupidly flushed for the second time, only to realize that was the dumbest decision i'd ever made in life: the water leaked OUT from the bowl.
The second misfortune was mercilessly testing my patience. My internet connection was off for a few moments, got me called the COMCAST operator. That is one thing I'd hate the most among the many uses of phone: calling operator, and be given many choices before getting talked to the person i supposed to talk to. I especially hate IKEA's hotline. It gave me so many choice of numbers to press, depending on what I was complaining about, until the point where I'd fforgotten what was my initial intention to call and which number to select -__-
Third and the most annoying thing to be had was when I went to Bestbuy to buy my long-dreamt camera, the color that I happened to like was SOLD OUT. Maybe, with this degree of misfortune, i can now say FML.
Anyways, just to share with you, I want to buy
But i want it in silver color, which apparently spare no chemistry for me :[ but anyways, isn't look kinda cool in this color? *self-doctrinising myself into thinking it's okay to buy this color* AHAH.
So, the big plan for tomorrow is to first, get my camera at 10am, and wait for the dear plumber to fix my toilet bowl :D and after that, me and Alina are going to downtown, mayeb with Toshiki and Gavin too. WOot!
I have nothing much to say, just too excited to get a hold of my new camera lols.
This song never fails to send an urge to be closer to The Creator,for meAve Maria
Saturday, August 8, 2009
BLESSED
The weather these days are not too prima-friendly uh. It's suppose to be summer, but reading the weather forecast shows that it's more like fall's than summer's. The week has maintained around the low 70s :[
And anyway, yesterday I had a really good time with Yuriko-chan, Toni and Sladjan. We went for the Pike Place Ghost Tour which tour guide was (and is) Toni's bestfriend, Nafisa. So it was basically a tour which tells the history of Pike Place market, from as old as the early 1990s. To cut it short, I'd just mention the eeriest places that we went to. Pike PLace market ahs basically merciless terrain with UPS and DOWNS. There are many many many bars and cafes with life music or just some upper-class hangouts. So how eerie can those places be? Wells, it turns out that Pikeplace was the first place that any merchants would reach after they reach Seattle. From way far on the boat, the landmark was the Butterworth Mortuary, which was ran by his 5 sons. He used to attending buffalo's bones, but he switch interest into attending the corpse. So within the brick wall was a multiple-storeys mortuary. The way the corpse were brought up was by using Hydrocholic elevator, which in present day, is now a Kell's Bar. In order to get more money,Mr Butterworth made a deal with a female doctor to supply him with fresh corpse in return for some good bux. So, being a knowledgeable doctor, she tried to kill her patients in less obvious way, or was seem like a natural-death kinda thing. Apparently, all her victims died due to starvation -___-"
im missing you, my home-grown boy!
And anyway, yesterday I had a really good time with Yuriko-chan, Toni and Sladjan. We went for the Pike Place Ghost Tour which tour guide was (and is) Toni's bestfriend, Nafisa. So it was basically a tour which tells the history of Pike Place market, from as old as the early 1990s. To cut it short, I'd just mention the eeriest places that we went to. Pike PLace market ahs basically merciless terrain with UPS and DOWNS. There are many many many bars and cafes with life music or just some upper-class hangouts. So how eerie can those places be? Wells, it turns out that Pikeplace was the first place that any merchants would reach after they reach Seattle. From way far on the boat, the landmark was the Butterworth Mortuary, which was ran by his 5 sons. He used to attending buffalo's bones, but he switch interest into attending the corpse. So within the brick wall was a multiple-storeys mortuary. The way the corpse were brought up was by using Hydrocholic elevator, which in present day, is now a Kell's Bar. In order to get more money,Mr Butterworth made a deal with a female doctor to supply him with fresh corpse in return for some good bux. So, being a knowledgeable doctor, she tried to kill her patients in less obvious way, or was seem like a natural-death kinda thing. Apparently, all her victims died due to starvation -___-"
im missing you, my home-grown boy!
Saturday, August 1, 2009
So, I spent my Saturday Night at home, mugging for Chemistry. Spent some quality time with BF over the Skype. Things are better now, I know where we are and where are we on my priority map. It was difficult to swallow, but it has to go on~
Been talking of what we have been lacking behind and painful hit of realization. I realized that we are not as contented as how we liked to be, there are major foundation things to be settled, and also matching his and my expectations. As of now, we are still adjusting the mid point as to how much we can push forward/tolerate/put-in effort. The measures are good, but the next step may lead to "why do I willing to sacrifice only this much?. Is it because there is no motivational motive anymore/not in the current priority/else?". Im not sure if Im ready to swallow it all. The most painful thing might be thee fear of hurting you instead getting hurt. Guilt haunts me twice as much :\ Maybe I can call it "komplikasi a good lover" ha!
Sunday is well spent. Currently studying Accounting for the Midterm and quiz tomorrow. I cant imagine how busy life would be like in the upcoming weeks. My fingers are crossed, hoping for the best to happen- smooth sailingly and peacefully.
Brunch was late, at 3pm. Had an English Breakfast. The new sausage tastes so soft, but SALTY ~.~
Not looking forward for accounting tomorrow, Im not sure why. I should be back on my studies,
XOXO
Been talking of what we have been lacking behind and painful hit of realization. I realized that we are not as contented as how we liked to be, there are major foundation things to be settled, and also matching his and my expectations. As of now, we are still adjusting the mid point as to how much we can push forward/tolerate/put-in effort. The measures are good, but the next step may lead to "why do I willing to sacrifice only this much?. Is it because there is no motivational motive anymore/not in the current priority/else?". Im not sure if Im ready to swallow it all. The most painful thing might be thee fear of hurting you instead getting hurt. Guilt haunts me twice as much :\ Maybe I can call it "komplikasi a good lover" ha!
Sunday is well spent. Currently studying Accounting for the Midterm and quiz tomorrow. I cant imagine how busy life would be like in the upcoming weeks. My fingers are crossed, hoping for the best to happen- smooth sailingly and peacefully.
Brunch was late, at 3pm. Had an English Breakfast. The new sausage tastes so soft, but SALTY ~.~
Not looking forward for accounting tomorrow, Im not sure why. I should be back on my studies,
XOXO
Friday, July 31, 2009
stalker on the move
yap! it's none other than me. Recently i bumped into one of my highschool friend's blog,who happens to be my ex-crush too actually (being a lil sentimental doesnt kill). And I just realized just how true i was on my perceptions about you. Reading your writing, had me feel remorseful. If only I hadn't been crippled with my Indonesian-language ability, I could have written much like how he did. Personality-wise, I think he's an enticing guy with his sensitive eyes watching the people surround him. He can just turn everyday's topic into a witty observation which utterly entertained me. Or at least, his blog hooked me much longer than my Chemistry textbook did. Would I be like how he is with his keen eyes, had I been staying in Jakarta? Maybe one of the things that I miss the most from the normal ordinary Indonesians are their honesty of portrayal, and from there, came a natural wit, that you cant jus acquire by reading a certain kind of books. Ah! A shame that I cant post his blog's link here :[ It's been nice knowing you better from your writing! [:
Thursday, July 30, 2009
where
Familiarity does not exist. Only recently it came to light as of what I have become. It didnt take very long time to be what you are to me. Call me still into-it, but I feel an overwhelming sadness and regrets of what we've become. It's hard to tell how it started. Presumably it was the time period when I was busy, and you, being too understanding just letting me be. Now I just feel that I am a huge distance away from you, knowing that I neither can talk to you about almost anything for a long time nor I enjoy having conversation with you. Im not too sure if the latter came in surface because it always happened during my wee hours instead of yours, or because you are not how I want. There's lesser things to update you, mostly it was just the basic daily things, but where my excitement goes to? I dont need some constant attention and understanding, I need something fresh, to hook me up in the cycle. I tried to be the driver,like example for last night. But you could'nt even see that it was a form of me needing some freshies to stir us into a new way and excitement. Or maybe you can't get excited for what I think was excited anymore? So many things to think about. One thing for sure, I dont want to waste you in vain, but as of now. I cant see a way out.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
MOAN.day
So, the most antucipated day has finally ended. Out of plan a lil, I went to Greenlake with Nargiza, Julian, Ahmed, Joao, Yuriko and Joao's uncle too, who was kindly paid for the boat that we rented. But Im gonna pay him back ofcourse. And SO, we rented the boat to pedal with 4 seaters, pedalling all the way to the middle of the Greenlake.
Darn tired, because halfway, Joao and Nargiza decided to swim accross the lake and that means, me and poor Julian had to pedal ourselves to the edge. Picked Yuriko from the shore, and we went back to the middle. The view was darn good and relaxing, minus the occasional numb and muscle stretch from pedalling our way through the water. Ducks were on sight, they were darn pretty! I always tried to persuade Zoolian to pedal near the duck with hope I can catch em or maybe run after them is enough. To think about it again, i can see myself looking so excited chasing the throng of ducks, with Julian at the back seat, trying very hard to match my unfeasible desire lols. The 1 hour pedal session ended with a looong walk around GreenLake with Joao,Nargiz and Julian. It was darn tiring I swear. Whenever we thought that "we are finally nearing", I can always tell that we are actually not there yet, or even nearing :l But it's alright, was a good exercise though.
Reached home at 10+, and my long-dreamt trout is not cooked again today, coz by the time i reached home, i think my housemate has asleep, so I didnt wanna disturb her. :( It's okay fish, you can stay for another night at my Fridge-Hotel haha. Tomorrow I have to go to HT to buy beansprout for lunch. Stir fried with tofu, make it spicy, also serve with butter garlic Trout :D and the highlight for tomorrow is that, my lab session for 5 hours, running from 5pm til 10pm :[ tell me what kind of lab is that!!!!! Gosh! I feel like escaping now~
Im gonna sleeep now.
Body Aching,
Prima
Darn tired, because halfway, Joao and Nargiza decided to swim accross the lake and that means, me and poor Julian had to pedal ourselves to the edge. Picked Yuriko from the shore, and we went back to the middle. The view was darn good and relaxing, minus the occasional numb and muscle stretch from pedalling our way through the water. Ducks were on sight, they were darn pretty! I always tried to persuade Zoolian to pedal near the duck with hope I can catch em or maybe run after them is enough. To think about it again, i can see myself looking so excited chasing the throng of ducks, with Julian at the back seat, trying very hard to match my unfeasible desire lols. The 1 hour pedal session ended with a looong walk around GreenLake with Joao,Nargiz and Julian. It was darn tiring I swear. Whenever we thought that "we are finally nearing", I can always tell that we are actually not there yet, or even nearing :l But it's alright, was a good exercise though.
Reached home at 10+, and my long-dreamt trout is not cooked again today, coz by the time i reached home, i think my housemate has asleep, so I didnt wanna disturb her. :( It's okay fish, you can stay for another night at my Fridge-Hotel haha. Tomorrow I have to go to HT to buy beansprout for lunch. Stir fried with tofu, make it spicy, also serve with butter garlic Trout :D and the highlight for tomorrow is that, my lab session for 5 hours, running from 5pm til 10pm :[ tell me what kind of lab is that!!!!! Gosh! I feel like escaping now~
Im gonna sleeep now.
Body Aching,
Prima
Sunday, July 26, 2009
SUN.day
Today Seattle is freaking hot i guess. Never once I sweat this much in Seattle lol. Anw i talked to my boyfie over Skype last night, Yuriko joined us as well. So yeah it was 2 versus one kind of conversation. To recap: Yuriko slept over at my place last night. We decided to burn our saturday-night(Sunday early morning) doing homework lols. Equipped with Mac's Nuggets and fries, we attack the mountainous homework. We slept at 4 and I woke up at 1 while she woke up at 11! I cooked for us, stir fry bak coy and heat up the chicken for us to eat. Enjoyed lunch today (: Right after that we are back to homework, singing Joanna, and whistling.
The clock strike 4.45 when I an to bathroom to bathe and get get ready to catch 75 which came way sooooo late. Went to QFC and coukdnt quite decide what to buy. After much contemplation, I decided to buy a marinated trout for just $3.00. Maybe will cook it tomorrow, along with what suppose to be a stir fry (yeah, again) beansprout with tofu <3 AWW!
Today I chat with my daddy, and I can really feel how much he misses me. I do miss him much, but I tried not to think about that though. But I was having a serious sentimental moment just now. I hope my family gonna come here anytime soon. But the fastest I can expect is maybe around the end of the year, since my mom cant have any day off since she just began to work in October -__-" But it's okay, any time is good too :D
My roomate, Toni, just went back from Bremerton :D and she invited me to a tour which her friend work for. It's a ghost-tour at Pike Place. Im so excited to go! She gonna drive us there, along with Sladjan and maybe Yuriko and Ahmed too. Yahay! I cant wait for my Monday to end. I need a break.
goodnight world,bless me.
The clock strike 4.45 when I an to bathroom to bathe and get get ready to catch 75 which came way sooooo late. Went to QFC and coukdnt quite decide what to buy. After much contemplation, I decided to buy a marinated trout for just $3.00. Maybe will cook it tomorrow, along with what suppose to be a stir fry (yeah, again) beansprout with tofu <3 AWW!
Today I chat with my daddy, and I can really feel how much he misses me. I do miss him much, but I tried not to think about that though. But I was having a serious sentimental moment just now. I hope my family gonna come here anytime soon. But the fastest I can expect is maybe around the end of the year, since my mom cant have any day off since she just began to work in October -__-" But it's okay, any time is good too :D
My roomate, Toni, just went back from Bremerton :D and she invited me to a tour which her friend work for. It's a ghost-tour at Pike Place. Im so excited to go! She gonna drive us there, along with Sladjan and maybe Yuriko and Ahmed too. Yahay! I cant wait for my Monday to end. I need a break.
goodnight world,bless me.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Saturday's rate is yet to tell, for now is not the end of my Saturday yet. But so far so good. Woke up at 11ish by Robert's call. He thought i went to Indah's today, but I couldn't even go there even if I wanted to, since im not sure how to get there. Was doing a lil of work when Ahmed called me that Jeongyi's farewell meal is during lunch time. Freaked out, I went to bathe and dress. Waited for him for about half an hour til and we hopped on the car. All of us were rather quiet today. I wonder why. I didn't think I was gonna be hungry since I'd eaten the leftover spaghetti just some hours back, but the sight of the sizzling pan and dancing meats are too irresistable. To think of it, I have eaten Korean BBQ 2X this month -_-" so much for wanting to save!
Anw days are not going okay. Whenever Iam on my lappie, I couldnt stop seeing the same websites again and again. Time to discover more websites to visit! Do let me know if you know an interesting website. I need something fresh, <3
Will update more later. And also, I still want to buy a digicam :[
Anw days are not going okay. Whenever Iam on my lappie, I couldnt stop seeing the same websites again and again. Time to discover more websites to visit! Do let me know if you know an interesting website. I need something fresh, <3
Will update more later. And also, I still want to buy a digicam :[
2:00 am
It's wee hour, i know.
I just cant think of any better way to let out my frustration over my own laziness. I was sure struck by an overwhelming procrastination dilemma that I aint even sure if I could get over it anytime soon :( Anways, today was a fun day. Started with meeting robert at 8am (yeah, your eyes are not playing tricks on you, it's AM!) to go to MacD for some breakfast. Intended to go to Indah's house, but stooopid me, I didnt realize that she wont be at home today but Saturday instead :( Me and Robert ended up shopping at HT Market at a lil less than 9.30am. Morning shopping is horrible. With stomach half full, I went to all the shelves thinking that I could make everything, that I ended up buying many many things. I bought 2 package of tofu, which expiry dates are 30th July(a week time to consume 2 package of tofu). It's not like as though I am a tofu-monster,no. But just to highlight the danger of going shopping with half-full stomach. I went home feeling so contended with what I bought lol. House-wife instincts are kicking in that I ended up cooking the Ayam Sambal and tidying up the shelves. My boyfriend'd better be proud of me lol.
Went out to meet Yuriko at 1pm to go to U-Village. Bought a couple of things that I cant mention right here coz the people might read this. But anw, just anticipate their arrival, if you are reading this post (: Wander around forawhile to find present, but i COuldnt find anything that caught my eyes =[ Julian met us at U-Village and Ahmed as well as Kim too! Yeha! Got to know new friends today. Kim was nice. Somewhat mature, somewhat not. Nice guy though! Off to eat at Spaghetti Factory with the group, and off to Lynwood (I know it was like an adventure, given that today is Friday, mind you). Had black milk bubble tea :D and we hang around forawhile to play monopoly. Was under the impression that JUlian wouldn't like monopoly, but guess what, Yuriko and him are HOOKED to it by now! yay!
Khaled and his friend, an indo guy came over too, watching us play monopoly. I was neither losing nor winnning. I thought i was wiining though. COz i think my stack of money was a great deal lots more than others' :D but anyways, it's just monopoly money. If only it was real money with valid currency :[
Off to play pool right beside the bubble tea place. Was a nice place that was owned by a Korean guy. Most who came were Korean and Mexican though. The Koreans are playing on a table which has no holes. Kim told me that it was just how the Koreans are playing with Pool. -.-" So, in the every turn of one's turn to hit a ball, the person has to make sure that the ball hits 2 ball of the same color. I know it sounds confusing. But believe me, it's just as confusing as how it sounded. I thought the game was pretty frustrating though, since I will be in constant impression that the ame aint gonna end. But anw, they seemed to enjoy themselves with the kind of game, so eyah. I off to my own game. Kim was great :D we won against Yuriko and Julian. Time to switch team, Kim and I were against Khaled and Fabian. Fabian was good! They cant stop teasing me abou me being always need the stick to reach a ball -.- managed to stole some wins from them though. But I think, overall, they still won. Ended a good day nicely with Chemistry, which doesn't look like it's progressing well at all. Good night Universe. Conspire for me for tomorrow.
I just cant think of any better way to let out my frustration over my own laziness. I was sure struck by an overwhelming procrastination dilemma that I aint even sure if I could get over it anytime soon :( Anways, today was a fun day. Started with meeting robert at 8am (yeah, your eyes are not playing tricks on you, it's AM!) to go to MacD for some breakfast. Intended to go to Indah's house, but stooopid me, I didnt realize that she wont be at home today but Saturday instead :( Me and Robert ended up shopping at HT Market at a lil less than 9.30am. Morning shopping is horrible. With stomach half full, I went to all the shelves thinking that I could make everything, that I ended up buying many many things. I bought 2 package of tofu, which expiry dates are 30th July(a week time to consume 2 package of tofu). It's not like as though I am a tofu-monster,no. But just to highlight the danger of going shopping with half-full stomach. I went home feeling so contended with what I bought lol. House-wife instincts are kicking in that I ended up cooking the Ayam Sambal and tidying up the shelves. My boyfriend'd better be proud of me lol.
Went out to meet Yuriko at 1pm to go to U-Village. Bought a couple of things that I cant mention right here coz the people might read this. But anw, just anticipate their arrival, if you are reading this post (: Wander around forawhile to find present, but i COuldnt find anything that caught my eyes =[ Julian met us at U-Village and Ahmed as well as Kim too! Yeha! Got to know new friends today. Kim was nice. Somewhat mature, somewhat not. Nice guy though! Off to eat at Spaghetti Factory with the group, and off to Lynwood (I know it was like an adventure, given that today is Friday, mind you). Had black milk bubble tea :D and we hang around forawhile to play monopoly. Was under the impression that JUlian wouldn't like monopoly, but guess what, Yuriko and him are HOOKED to it by now! yay!
Khaled and his friend, an indo guy came over too, watching us play monopoly. I was neither losing nor winnning. I thought i was wiining though. COz i think my stack of money was a great deal lots more than others' :D but anyways, it's just monopoly money. If only it was real money with valid currency :[
Off to play pool right beside the bubble tea place. Was a nice place that was owned by a Korean guy. Most who came were Korean and Mexican though. The Koreans are playing on a table which has no holes. Kim told me that it was just how the Koreans are playing with Pool. -.-" So, in the every turn of one's turn to hit a ball, the person has to make sure that the ball hits 2 ball of the same color. I know it sounds confusing. But believe me, it's just as confusing as how it sounded. I thought the game was pretty frustrating though, since I will be in constant impression that the ame aint gonna end. But anw, they seemed to enjoy themselves with the kind of game, so eyah. I off to my own game. Kim was great :D we won against Yuriko and Julian. Time to switch team, Kim and I were against Khaled and Fabian. Fabian was good! They cant stop teasing me abou me being always need the stick to reach a ball -.- managed to stole some wins from them though. But I think, overall, they still won. Ended a good day nicely with Chemistry, which doesn't look like it's progressing well at all. Good night Universe. Conspire for me for tomorrow.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
First Night
Dont think what you are not suppose to think about. It's all about being in a new house, thats it. The view is lovely, but there are a couple of times when I could even hear a song playing in a car which passes by. I thought it's marvellous! Coz back in Shoreline, it was too quiet. It was like living in dark woods as compared to here. But I loved it there too though. Anyway, a new beginning has got to begin with a good morning tomorrow, which means.... BREAKFAST WITH MULTI GRAIN BREAD WITH RASPBERRY JAM WITH MILK <3 aw! Lovely!
And anyways, Yoga class was alright. The class was doing handstand today, except me. I think I still cant trust my elbow and my wrist to be put such a big responsibility of holding my 52kg of body weight. This two days I would have to collect my guts though. Im curious how it feels to have my head lower than where my legs are. And also, hand stand/ head stand is good for blood circulation, ensuring even circulation to face, and brain (read: regular practice would make you look younger when you have aged). But to think of it, I dont really need to look any younger after I have aged though, coz prolly I would still have the same kind of look, pretty much.
Chemistry online class is going better than I thought it would. At least for the time being.If i didnt wrongly interpret the score table, i should have scored full marks (10 upon 10) for the weekly discussion, which on the second week I skipped the second part of discussion. Also, for the third week, my second part of the quiz was answered crapily~ But Hail Ms. Owens, yay! Oh,my motivation for this week is that the fact that even though last week was a darn hectic week for me with the packing and moving going on, I could still manage to get 54/58 for my first Chemistry quiz. Running in my head is things that I could reward myself with for the hard work last week. i realized I hadnt beeen rewarding myself generously these past months, or maybe years?! So yeah, in accordance with Yoga, I would want to try to be gentler with myself (:
So, these are the options:
a). LUSH Bubble Bath(s)
b). a new dress
c). Korean BBQ meal
d). SUSHI
e). Manicures-Pedicures
f). Broadway Ticket
g). (yet to think)
Im so over the moon. Good night~
And anyways, Yoga class was alright. The class was doing handstand today, except me. I think I still cant trust my elbow and my wrist to be put such a big responsibility of holding my 52kg of body weight. This two days I would have to collect my guts though. Im curious how it feels to have my head lower than where my legs are. And also, hand stand/ head stand is good for blood circulation, ensuring even circulation to face, and brain (read: regular practice would make you look younger when you have aged). But to think of it, I dont really need to look any younger after I have aged though, coz prolly I would still have the same kind of look, pretty much.
Chemistry online class is going better than I thought it would. At least for the time being.If i didnt wrongly interpret the score table, i should have scored full marks (10 upon 10) for the weekly discussion, which on the second week I skipped the second part of discussion. Also, for the third week, my second part of the quiz was answered crapily~ But Hail Ms. Owens, yay! Oh,my motivation for this week is that the fact that even though last week was a darn hectic week for me with the packing and moving going on, I could still manage to get 54/58 for my first Chemistry quiz. Running in my head is things that I could reward myself with for the hard work last week. i realized I hadnt beeen rewarding myself generously these past months, or maybe years?! So yeah, in accordance with Yoga, I would want to try to be gentler with myself (:
So, these are the options:
a). LUSH Bubble Bath(s)
b). a new dress
c). Korean BBQ meal
d). SUSHI
e). Manicures-Pedicures
f). Broadway Ticket
g). (yet to think)
Im so over the moon. Good night~
Monday, July 20, 2009
D-1
So today marks the D-1 before the Grand Finale of my Moving-Out series. Tomorrow will be the day I move myself to the new apartment! Hopefully pictures are going to be loaded as soon as I begin to snap them. So here's sort of the short report of whats going on(s) during my weekend:
Saturday
Yuriko came over to my house at 10am sharp to help me move my things out. Poor her, had to rush coz she thought I asked her to be at my place at 10am instead of 10-ish. But geez, such a good friend (:
Julian walked all the way from Aurora Village Transit Centre which is block 200th to my house (179th) just because he thought he'd missed the bus and hence would reach my house only by 11ish. Nothing to say except they are superb house movers! and along with Chuck too who was kind enough drove us to the apartment. I was pretty pissed though because the matress doesnt match with the size of the bed, but hell, I can do that later. Yuriko did really well in assembling the bed, along with Julian. She didthe drilling and all. At around 3, Robert came over to check out my place and hang out forawhile. At 3.30, we left for the rewarding Genki Sushi!!!! I had my long-dreamt Eclaire~ Went back to Northgate's Ross to buy pillows (which were also missing from the IKEA orders) and rings for the shower curtain. Met Ahmed at Northgate and he drove us back to my apartment. Pack, and Ahmed sent me home.
Sunday
Sunday was nothing much to talk about. Exhausted and irritated because of the mountain of Chemistry stuff to work on, ALSO Accounting Mid Term for Monday to revise :X
But anyway, moving out was made marvellous, with marvellous friends around. Bed+High Speed Internet= :)Yay! more updates tomorrow. Chao~
PS: Cant wait for my romantic Cyber Date with Stroberi. MWAH!
Saturday
Yuriko came over to my house at 10am sharp to help me move my things out. Poor her, had to rush coz she thought I asked her to be at my place at 10am instead of 10-ish. But geez, such a good friend (:
Julian walked all the way from Aurora Village Transit Centre which is block 200th to my house (179th) just because he thought he'd missed the bus and hence would reach my house only by 11ish. Nothing to say except they are superb house movers! and along with Chuck too who was kind enough drove us to the apartment. I was pretty pissed though because the matress doesnt match with the size of the bed, but hell, I can do that later. Yuriko did really well in assembling the bed, along with Julian. She didthe drilling and all. At around 3, Robert came over to check out my place and hang out forawhile. At 3.30, we left for the rewarding Genki Sushi!!!! I had my long-dreamt Eclaire~ Went back to Northgate's Ross to buy pillows (which were also missing from the IKEA orders) and rings for the shower curtain. Met Ahmed at Northgate and he drove us back to my apartment. Pack, and Ahmed sent me home.
Sunday
Sunday was nothing much to talk about. Exhausted and irritated because of the mountain of Chemistry stuff to work on, ALSO Accounting Mid Term for Monday to revise :X
But anyway, moving out was made marvellous, with marvellous friends around. Bed+High Speed Internet= :)Yay! more updates tomorrow. Chao~
PS: Cant wait for my romantic Cyber Date with Stroberi. MWAH!
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Thirst-Day
Thursday is here! D-2 before my big-move-in day <3 aww so excited! Last night I managed to packed 3/4 of my wardrobe inside the vacuum bags, and now I only left with jackets and shawls from my wardrobe. I didnt think that it was that tiring, but in faxt, i was half-dead tired last night. It was not about the physical work, but the mental calculation and the organization to make sure that everthing is arranged efficiently so the the unpacking time on saturday will be quite an ease. Glad to know to that my friends are coming over to help me with my stuff on Saturday :D I just hope that everything will fall into place on Saturday.
So, to cut the long story short, i wasted my time today. Went for some sleep at 4am and woke up at 12! goth! Had a hella good time with Stroberi on Skype last night. Was tryong to dare him to say "where's the Godzilla?" on the running kids on his block's hallway. It turned out they were his neighbours haha. How sweet Stroberi is! Went for GISA meeting at 2pm and Robert Robel Nargiza and Sarf were there. We were discussing some of the upcoming events for the summer quarter. Among those are, the Woodland Park Zoo trip, Horseback Riding and the Wildwaves too. Talking about the GISA club, i remembered that I have to do some stuff -__- call me big time procastrinator~ meeting done and bumped into someone in front of Tully's.he asked me for a date! that was shocking. And anw
Yesterday, I had my first love letter from Val. She was sucha sweetheart for getting her first-ever-designed-pin. I heart you Val <3
Head so heavy, i will have early night today. Lovelove!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVnRzE
So, to cut the long story short, i wasted my time today. Went for some sleep at 4am and woke up at 12! goth! Had a hella good time with Stroberi on Skype last night. Was tryong to dare him to say "where's the Godzilla?" on the running kids on his block's hallway. It turned out they were his neighbours haha. How sweet Stroberi is! Went for GISA meeting at 2pm and Robert Robel Nargiza and Sarf were there. We were discussing some of the upcoming events for the summer quarter. Among those are, the Woodland Park Zoo trip, Horseback Riding and the Wildwaves too. Talking about the GISA club, i remembered that I have to do some stuff -__- call me big time procastrinator~ meeting done and bumped into someone in front of Tully's.he asked me for a date! that was shocking. And anw
Yesterday, I had my first love letter from Val. She was sucha sweetheart for getting her first-ever-designed-pin. I heart you Val <3
Head so heavy, i will have early night today. Lovelove!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XVnRzE
Sunday, July 12, 2009
summer is (not) here
Sunday is supposedly be an uplifting day to begin a new roller-coster-like week! But what it turned out? Cloudy and it rained today :( Seattle is messing my senses of seasons! A little update of what I did today:
I watched a part of Okuribito around afternoon today. I know it was my 4th time watching it, and i was not sicked of it yet surprisingly. This movie holds a special place in my <3. It touched me with a sense of humanity no movie ever did, and gave a nice appreciative feeling of every single thing after watching it. Im looking forward to seeing more movies that could make personal impact like this one, the one that makes me more sensitive and observant to even an every-day thing like passing by trees, eating rice etc.
Right after that, I moved to Sweeny Todd. Joanna still sends chill down my spine :l But it's alright, Tim Burton did a good job (: To think of it, it wasn't my 1st or 2nd time watching Sweeny Todd either. Geeeez I have to update my movie database so I wont have to end up watching the same movie again and again. *thinking to watch Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights for the 4th time though* ahahha
Adrienne made homemade burgers today. One with beef and another's lamb. I like lamb better. Maybe because I'd always liked lamb! But hell, it was good, even the beef! It has got a home-taste thing which really gives character to her burger. I hope she gonna win the competition and get to go to Napa Valley,CA :D Gambate!
Im going to miss all her cookings (even the leftovers!) and animals, and the rest of the inhibitant of 2340 N179th St Shoreline WA 98133 soon, since I will be moving out to a new place by next week I guess :l Hope everything gonna be smooth so I can manage my house-moving all within one day (: Im worried about a couple of things though. I still dont have my bed yet :l It will be back in stock by next week, but "next week" ranges from Monday-Sunday! Which day will it be?
I haven't found ways to do my weekly shopping though. Maybe I shall figure it out later, once im done with my Accounting stuff.
I hope tomorrow would be a good day! It better be, since we are gonna go to Korean BBQ :D
I shall end here, will try my best to put up picture *keyword: maybe!
I watched a part of Okuribito around afternoon today. I know it was my 4th time watching it, and i was not sicked of it yet surprisingly. This movie holds a special place in my <3. It touched me with a sense of humanity no movie ever did, and gave a nice appreciative feeling of every single thing after watching it. Im looking forward to seeing more movies that could make personal impact like this one, the one that makes me more sensitive and observant to even an every-day thing like passing by trees, eating rice etc.
Right after that, I moved to Sweeny Todd. Joanna still sends chill down my spine :l But it's alright, Tim Burton did a good job (: To think of it, it wasn't my 1st or 2nd time watching Sweeny Todd either. Geeeez I have to update my movie database so I wont have to end up watching the same movie again and again. *thinking to watch Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights for the 4th time though* ahahha
Adrienne made homemade burgers today. One with beef and another's lamb. I like lamb better. Maybe because I'd always liked lamb! But hell, it was good, even the beef! It has got a home-taste thing which really gives character to her burger. I hope she gonna win the competition and get to go to Napa Valley,CA :D Gambate!
Im going to miss all her cookings (even the leftovers!) and animals, and the rest of the inhibitant of 2340 N179th St Shoreline WA 98133 soon, since I will be moving out to a new place by next week I guess :l Hope everything gonna be smooth so I can manage my house-moving all within one day (: Im worried about a couple of things though. I still dont have my bed yet :l It will be back in stock by next week, but "next week" ranges from Monday-Sunday! Which day will it be?
I haven't found ways to do my weekly shopping though. Maybe I shall figure it out later, once im done with my Accounting stuff.
I hope tomorrow would be a good day! It better be, since we are gonna go to Korean BBQ :D
I shall end here, will try my best to put up picture *keyword: maybe!
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