Maybe the most horrible feeling i have ever felt is the feeling of being wasted. Like when you tried to pick up someone's coin on the floor, already squatting, but someone else has got it all picked up, or when you have brought umbrella (which you normally dont), and it was darn sunny the whole day.
Maybe my examples are more like digression than elaboration, but anyways, im trying to emphasize that it feels so bad when you have channeled my willingness and intention, to get us back on track through my favorite route, but you chose to have a shortcut and shortened the beauty of making up. The same with "I tried hard to get the vibe and chemistry works better, but you were not responsive" in humane works. Many moments passed when I thought "I cant possibly be missing the beauty of many dancing-away moments, or the light weaving-romance moments together with you". But yeah apparently I just did. Not blaming you though. Just that reality strikes hard, maybe my importance is not as absolute as it once was. And Im in the position whereby I have the whole day in the world to start noticing, feeling, apprehending the situation. GAH!
Conscience told me to be a lil more patient, and lenient, but what is a girl with no ego? I used to think that ego actually gives direction, but now i feel its kinda the digressing power; I concentrate more on satisfying my ego rather than getting to where we should be in the stage of relationship that we share. I ended up being demanding, with no apparent reason, as to make things better, or just to let my stuffy chest out. I feel so naggy these days, though i have ground proof for those, like how my importance has slid off. Maybe you are acting humane to avoid the constant discomforts. But still, I hope you get it, one day.
Theres still much love for you and I to share.
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