tHink tHought tHought

Eventually one of us has to break it out: it's not easy to maintain this. I began to feel the urge to have someone nearer to me. Not that I have seen an option, might be potential-in myself though. I know that we didnt talk about this, much less plan this. But I would have to acknowledge this existence, tell myself that this is happening, and thus is not quite right.

How sane can it be when out of the blue you began to see the usual boy-friends as date-able and potentially lead to romance?

or

How sane can that sound when every touch made tingles your fantasy and excitements?

I might have to isolate myself before I began to get worse than this.
But then again, are there incentive?

I dont know what I want / where Iam going.

One thing for sure, I know that ours is not developing. Maybe we are just too scarred slamming the truth to one another that it no longer seen as feasible?

That might what Im thinking. What is yours?