SIAL!

Jarang2 gw bisa menemukan occasion yang baik untuk ngomong 1 kata ini. Tapi hari ini, tanpa dicari, seluruh biluh sel2 di badan gw seolah2 berteriak "SIAL!" bareng2. Agak terdengar kacau dan ngawur,tapi betul2 in context hari ini.

Untuk memulai suatu hari yang baru, pertama, toilet bowl gw langsung berontak. Whenever i tried to flush, the water didnt go away (implying that the waste doesnt go away too. Read as GROSS!). So thw water runs high in the bowl. And i was stupidly flushed for the second time, only to realize that was the dumbest decision i'd ever made in life: the water leaked OUT from the bowl.

The second misfortune was mercilessly testing my patience. My internet connection was off for a few moments, got me called the COMCAST operator. That is one thing I'd hate the most among the many uses of phone: calling operator, and be given many choices before getting talked to the person i supposed to talk to. I especially hate IKEA's hotline. It gave me so many choice of numbers to press, depending on what I was complaining about, until the point where I'd fforgotten what was my initial intention to call and which number to select -__-

Third and the most annoying thing to be had was when I went to Bestbuy to buy my long-dreamt camera, the color that I happened to like was SOLD OUT. Maybe, with this degree of misfortune, i can now say FML.
Anyways, just to share with you, I want to buy



But i want it in silver color, which apparently spare no chemistry for me :[ but anyways, isn't look kinda cool in this color? *self-doctrinising myself into thinking it's okay to buy this color* AHAH.

So, the big plan for tomorrow is to first, get my camera at 10am, and wait for the dear plumber to fix my toilet bowl :D and after that, me and Alina are going to downtown, mayeb with Toshiki and Gavin too. WOot!

I have nothing much to say, just too excited to get a hold of my new camera lols.

This song never fails to send an urge to be closer to The Creator,for meAve Maria

BLESSED

The weather these days are not too prima-friendly uh. It's suppose to be summer, but reading the weather forecast shows that it's more like fall's than summer's. The week has maintained around the low 70s :[

And anyway, yesterday I had a really good time with Yuriko-chan, Toni and Sladjan. We went for the Pike Place Ghost Tour which tour guide was (and is) Toni's bestfriend, Nafisa. So it was basically a tour which tells the history of Pike Place market, from as old as the early 1990s. To cut it short, I'd just mention the eeriest places that we went to. Pike PLace market ahs basically merciless terrain with UPS and DOWNS. There are many many many bars and cafes with life music or just some upper-class hangouts. So how eerie can those places be? Wells, it turns out that Pikeplace was the first place that any merchants would reach after they reach Seattle. From way far on the boat, the landmark was the Butterworth Mortuary, which was ran by his 5 sons. He used to attending buffalo's bones, but he switch interest into attending the corpse. So within the brick wall was a multiple-storeys mortuary. The way the corpse were brought up was by using Hydrocholic elevator, which in present day, is now a Kell's Bar. In order to get more money,Mr Butterworth made a deal with a female doctor to supply him with fresh corpse in return for some good bux. So, being a knowledgeable doctor, she tried to kill her patients in less obvious way, or was seem like a natural-death kinda thing. Apparently, all her victims died due to starvation -___-"

im missing you, my home-grown boy!

So, I spent my Saturday Night at home, mugging for Chemistry. Spent some quality time with BF over the Skype. Things are better now, I know where we are and where are we on my priority map. It was difficult to swallow, but it has to go on~
Been talking of what we have been lacking behind and painful hit of realization. I realized that we are not as contented as how we liked to be, there are major foundation things to be settled, and also matching his and my expectations. As of now, we are still adjusting the mid point as to how much we can push forward/tolerate/put-in effort. The measures are good, but the next step may lead to "why do I willing to sacrifice only this much?. Is it because there is no motivational motive anymore/not in the current priority/else?". Im not sure if Im ready to swallow it all. The most painful thing might be thee fear of hurting you instead getting hurt. Guilt haunts me twice as much :\ Maybe I can call it "komplikasi a good lover" ha!

Sunday is well spent. Currently studying Accounting for the Midterm and quiz tomorrow. I cant imagine how busy life would be like in the upcoming weeks. My fingers are crossed, hoping for the best to happen- smooth sailingly and peacefully.
Brunch was late, at 3pm. Had an English Breakfast. The new sausage tastes so soft, but SALTY ~.~
Not looking forward for accounting tomorrow, Im not sure why. I should be back on my studies,

XOXO

stalker on the move

yap! it's none other than me. Recently i bumped into one of my highschool friend's blog,who happens to be my ex-crush too actually (being a lil sentimental doesnt kill). And I just realized just how true i was on my perceptions about you. Reading your writing, had me feel remorseful. If only I hadn't been crippled with my Indonesian-language ability, I could have written much like how he did. Personality-wise, I think he's an enticing guy with his sensitive eyes watching the people surround him. He can just turn everyday's topic into a witty observation which utterly entertained me. Or at least, his blog hooked me much longer than my Chemistry textbook did. Would I be like how he is with his keen eyes, had I been staying in Jakarta? Maybe one of the things that I miss the most from the normal ordinary Indonesians are their honesty of portrayal, and from there, came a natural wit, that you cant jus acquire by reading a certain kind of books. Ah! A shame that I cant post his blog's link here :[ It's been nice knowing you better from your writing! [:

where

Familiarity does not exist. Only recently it came to light as of what I have become. It didnt take very long time to be what you are to me. Call me still into-it, but I feel an overwhelming sadness and regrets of what we've become. It's hard to tell how it started. Presumably it was the time period when I was busy, and you, being too understanding just letting me be. Now I just feel that I am a huge distance away from you, knowing that I neither can talk to you about almost anything for a long time nor I enjoy having conversation with you. Im not too sure if the latter came in surface because it always happened during my wee hours instead of yours, or because you are not how I want. There's lesser things to update you, mostly it was just the basic daily things, but where my excitement goes to? I dont need some constant attention and understanding, I need something fresh, to hook me up in the cycle. I tried to be the driver,like example for last night. But you could'nt even see that it was a form of me needing some freshies to stir us into a new way and excitement. Or maybe you can't get excited for what I think was excited anymore? So many things to think about. One thing for sure, I dont want to waste you in vain, but as of now. I cant see a way out.

feeling HOT

it's too hot, i decide not to spam the post with 1001 complains.

MOAN.day

So, the most antucipated day has finally ended. Out of plan a lil, I went to Greenlake with Nargiza, Julian, Ahmed, Joao, Yuriko and Joao's uncle too, who was kindly paid for the boat that we rented. But Im gonna pay him back ofcourse. And SO, we rented the boat to pedal with 4 seaters, pedalling all the way to the middle of the Greenlake.
Darn tired, because halfway, Joao and Nargiza decided to swim accross the lake and that means, me and poor Julian had to pedal ourselves to the edge. Picked Yuriko from the shore, and we went back to the middle. The view was darn good and relaxing, minus the occasional numb and muscle stretch from pedalling our way through the water. Ducks were on sight, they were darn pretty! I always tried to persuade Zoolian to pedal near the duck with hope I can catch em or maybe run after them is enough. To think about it again, i can see myself looking so excited chasing the throng of ducks, with Julian at the back seat, trying very hard to match my unfeasible desire lols. The 1 hour pedal session ended with a looong walk around GreenLake with Joao,Nargiz and Julian. It was darn tiring I swear. Whenever we thought that "we are finally nearing", I can always tell that we are actually not there yet, or even nearing :l But it's alright, was a good exercise though.

Reached home at 10+, and my long-dreamt trout is not cooked again today, coz by the time i reached home, i think my housemate has asleep, so I didnt wanna disturb her. :( It's okay fish, you can stay for another night at my Fridge-Hotel haha. Tomorrow I have to go to HT to buy beansprout for lunch. Stir fried with tofu, make it spicy, also serve with butter garlic Trout :D and the highlight for tomorrow is that, my lab session for 5 hours, running from 5pm til 10pm :[ tell me what kind of lab is that!!!!! Gosh! I feel like escaping now~

Im gonna sleeep now.

Body Aching,
Prima