existence

I thought you were long gone
I thought you were eliminated
I thought you were almost non-existent, except living in parallel world where paths dont cross

Your sudden reappearance squeezed the remnants of my emotional side.

(being human)

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appreciation, are you around?

today

Mutualism is not what I after, securing my perimeter is.
You crossed the line, even wanting more.
What are you?
I have my own things to settle. Your matter was petty. Not saying mine is any more holy, but I thrive for my causes.
Staying on the bottom of the food chain is not going to lead you anywhere. But to think further, I was too-- waiting for the things befallen on me,before I finally react out of desperation and worries.
Maybe the thin line seperates us is pride in our own self and works produce.

tHink tHought tHought

Eventually one of us has to break it out: it's not easy to maintain this. I began to feel the urge to have someone nearer to me. Not that I have seen an option, might be potential-in myself though. I know that we didnt talk about this, much less plan this. But I would have to acknowledge this existence, tell myself that this is happening, and thus is not quite right.

How sane can it be when out of the blue you began to see the usual boy-friends as date-able and potentially lead to romance?

or

How sane can that sound when every touch made tingles your fantasy and excitements?

I might have to isolate myself before I began to get worse than this.
But then again, are there incentive?

I dont know what I want / where Iam going.

One thing for sure, I know that ours is not developing. Maybe we are just too scarred slamming the truth to one another that it no longer seen as feasible?

That might what Im thinking. What is yours?

Sexy

I have gotta agree that Bill Compton, on and off camera, is a good balance of wit, good humour, good virtue and manner.

I sincerely yearn that it would all be mine in one package too. Badly, more than ever. Whoever goddess of love, hear me and grant me one wonderful being. I will then take care of your entrusted being, wholeheartedly.

There's just something terribly sexy about



totally into it, like I can never know!

sick wisdom

It somehow reveals who are my real friends and those who truly care for me and who are not. I hope, I have shown to people about keeping friendship,if not, I will try harder to show them and proving to myself what it takes to keep one. Like John C Maxwell said, "invest, on every day in your life, time to nurture a real friendship".